Thursday, October 5, 2017

1 Year Old

*Wrote this post a couple days after Emmett's 1st birthday*

This is Emmett's last update and I didn't realize I would be emotional about it. But I totally am. He has grown so much this past year and it's easy to see since we have a newborn in the house. I can't believe he was ever that little, just 1 year ago. The other night he woke up in the middle of the night, something he hasn't done since he was a newborn and I just rocked him in our recliner and cried like a baby because I can't believe how my love just grows and grows for him. He looked up at me because my tears were getting on his head (lol) and rubbed my face. I just about died. We are so blessed to have his sweet spirit. He is the busiest boy I've ever met. It definitely wears me out but I wouldn't have him any other way. He wakes up for the party! I guess this is what makes boys so fun, their business. He is a routine baby for sure. He knows when it's time to eat, play, and sleep. I love just watching him play. He is definitely ALL boy. He's obsessed with balls, cars, trains, and trucks. He loves to run around and lets us tickle attack him whenever we want. He's still so friendly and will play with anyone. It's been a crazy couple months getting adjusted to our family of 4, but we are so grateful for this little boy!

Sleep: Still sleeping like an angel! He's seriously been sleeping like an angel since was 2 months old. He basically tells me when he's ready for a nap and bedtime now which is AMAZING! We never had any sleep regression or anything and I'm going to give all the cred to sleep training.

Eating: He is officially on real milk now. No more formula. Thank the maker because I hate formula haha. But honestly the kid has been mostly drinking my oversupply. He gets a little territorial when he sees baby sister with a bottle of my milk... Like he will refuse to drink his milk over hers... Not a fun situation. He loves chicken, sunflower butter (allergic to peanut better) & jelly sandwiches, grapes, all berries, yogurt, cucumbers, green juice, and bananas.

-Really understands "no"
-Understands phrases such as: "Will you hand me ____?" and "Where are your toes?" <<< he shows us where Ruby's toes are all the time ;)
-It's finally gotten a lot easier to change him because he'll put his arms and leg through the holes
-Shakes his head yes & no
-He says: mama, dadda, sister (sounds like "tister", cutest thing ever), ball, book, banana, and car. And lots of blabber.
-When he's ready for a nap/sleep he will come up to us with his blankey, binky, and a book.
-He'll give us anything if we say "thank you" haha!
-Has 10 teeth
-Is getting better at using utensils
-Gets nervous around strangers but warms up really quick. Still the friendliest baby we know.

We have had so much fun with you this year and love you so stinking much! <3

Monday, October 2, 2017

Ruby's Birth Story

***I'm actually writing this as I'm in the hospital because I want to remember this as best as I can!***

At my 40 week appointment we scheduled an induction date for Sunday July 23rd. 41 weeks exactly. I went late with Emmett so, I was expecting to have to be induced this time around too. I initially had this induction set for 7PM that night but they called me a few days before and changed it to midnight.  They told me I just needed to show up at that time and they would get me in.

So, at around 11PM that night Wyatt and I headed to Corkeys (a Denny's time diner...we keep it classy) and snagged some breakfast burritos. Last year we went to Ihop before my induction with Emmett, so I guess we're making this "our thing" haha. After "my last meal" we headed to the hospital. We got there a little after midnight and were ready to check in. It turns out they wanted me to call and check in before coming in (I didn't have to do that for Emmett's induction) so we waited for about an hour in the waiting room while they got a room ready for us. While we waited we watched some law and order, stared at pictures of Emmett, and guessed how big baby sister would be.

(Last night as a dad to

We got into a room around 1:30AM and by then I was tired. Wyatt and I tried to sleep before we even went to the hospital but we were too excited! :) They got me all set up, hooked up with the IV, took my vitals, and checked me. 

That surprisingly took a little while. That wrapped up at around 2:30AM. They told me that she had some meconium and that when I delivered she would need the NICU team there "just incase". They told me it was common especially for babies that are past their due date, but I immediately got emotional. I knew it could be nothing, but it's still not a fun thing to hear going into labor and delivery... Especially on little sleep.

At that check, I was 1.5 cm dilated and 70% effaced (nothing changed from my 39 week appt). They explained to me that they were going to use a pill (cytotec) to soften the rest of my cervix, it comes in 4 doses you take every 4 hours or so. Supposedly, the pill isn't supposed to induce labor but because it softens the cervix some women begin to experience more contractions. They gave me my first dose around 3:30AM and I started feeling contractions within the first 30 minutes. In about 2 hours I went from being 1.5 cm dilated to 6 cm. The doctor came in, checked me, and broke my water at about 6:30AM and thats when the contractions started getting intense... I told myself I wanted to see how long I could go until I needed the epidural because I hardly felt contractions with Emmett. I was induced with Emmett and felt that I got my epidural pretty early because I was afraid to feel too much pain (plus I heard pitocin contractions hurt worse and I immediately got on pitocin with Emmett.) But this time around, as soon as I felt them I knew I wasn't missing out on anything! Haha! The pain was intense and fast. I knew I wanted to save my energy... Plus I wanted a nap! Haha! I got the epidural around 8AM. It was a much better experience than with Emmett. With Emmett I could feel the epidural clear up to my shoulders and couldn't even lift my legs. Now, I just felt it from my belly down and could still lift my legs. It was amazing. I went from being incredibly exhausted to taking a sweet nap! :)

Around 10 AM they checked me and I was 8cm dilated they expected me to be further along so they finally got me on some pitocin. Then around 11AM they checked me again and I was fully effaced and 9 cm dilated. Around 11:30AM I started feeling a LOT of pressure. Again, this was so different than Emmett because when I was this far along in labor, I could virtually feel everything. I had stopped pressing the "epidural button" about 5 hours before actually delivery (because of the strength). So, I could feel the pain and pressure. Now, all I could feel was pressure... NO pain. But I still had the urge to push, and it only seemed to be getting stronger so I told the nurse. She checked me and sure enough I was fully dilated and baby sister was crowning. The nurse told me to hang tight and not to push until she brought the doctor and NICU team back. She left and all I wanted to do what push this baby out. But she quickly came back in with the NICU team and said the doctor was on his way... He was just finishing up with a c-section.

I did a couple pushes with the nurse, but again she told me to hold it until the doctor came. I was like "I literally can't hold anything," and right as I was saying that the doctor came in. I had this instant relief when he came in but I swear it took him 5 mins to get his gown and gloves on. Once I saw him get his gown on I started pushing, he came a few moments later, told me to give it a "good push". I gave it 2 "good pushes" and she was out! Ruby Grace Padgett was born on July 24, 2017 and 11:52 AM.

They had Wyatt quickly cut the umbilical cord quickly and then she was instantly placed with the NICU team. I had that "I just pushed out a brand new baby high" and couldn't stop crying. I was happy, sad, excited, and anxious all at once. I just wanted to hold her. But we watched and listened as the NICU team cleaned her up and she cried. A few minutes after they got all the menconium cleaned up they handed her to me and she immediately latched. It was the best feeling ever. 

I was staring at her while she nursed and she looked familiar, like I've known her all along. I couldn't believe how beautiful she was. She looked different than Emmett and SO girly! I looked at Wyatt and we still didn't have a "for sure" name for her, so I said... "What should we name her?" He looked at me and said "she looks like our little "Roobers" (we tossed around the name Ruby and said how cute Roobers would be for a nickname) & sure enough she looked exactly like a Ruby with her rosy red cheeks. Ruby Grace Padgett, just fit her perfectly. I still can't believe there are 4 of us in our little house. My heart is so full <3

Monday, July 10, 2017

39 Week Pregnancy Update

Size: Just over 7 lbs; the size of a pumpkin

-I feel like I have carpal tunnel in my hips and hands. My doc said that sometimes women experience the swollen aches in their feet but it's just as common to feel it in your hands. 
-Finishing up my "nesting." All I have left to do is pack my hospital bag, I've been putting it off because I know I'll really be ready for her to come once that's done. 

Weight Gain: 40 lbs

Sleep: I have insomnia! Can't figure out if it's from having to pee 3X's a night or I'm just not able to sleep like I normally do because I'm huge! haha. It's probably a combination of both. 

Worst Moments: I said this in the last post, that I'm really starting to feel the physical toll of 2 back to back pregnancies. I feel like an old lady with my hips and the fact that I can't just get up when I want because of all the pressure "down there". I'm interested to see how my body handles post partum because I feel like I never really got the full "post partum experience" with Emmett. Ya know, getting pregnant 8 weeks after having him and all. Haha. I just hope that I'm not this sore. 

Best Moments: Fortunately, at my last appointment my doctor said that I was progressing. She said I'm about 1 1/2 cm dilated and about 70% effaced. She said that if by next week, I'm officially 2 cm dilated we can set up an induction for whenever if that's what I want to do. I'm not totally sure if I want to be induced. Of course, I'd love to go into labor naturally, but I also don't want to be pregnant for the next month! So we shall see :) 

Thursday, July 6, 2017

My Breastfeeding Experience (With First Baby)

Here's a little bit of a throw back post today. I wrote this post months ago, after I stopped breastfeeding Emmett. I always wanted to remember my first breastfeeding experience. It was so different than anything I had ever experienced before and I wanted a reference to look back on for my future children. I've loved having my pregnancy updates, so it only made sense to me to document this as well :) 

Before I had Emmett I did very minimal preparation for feeding (stupid, I know). But the entire time I was pregnant I didn’t even feel pregnant, and thinking about anything past labor and delivery was just too much for my mind at the time. My mom had told me that she had difficulty breastfeeding, along with all of my aunts. She said that she wasn't able to breastfed me or my brother past 2 weeks, so I tried not to stress breastfeeding to much on myself. My mentality was, if I have milk I'll breastfeed and if I don't I'll just use formula. That simple. I didn't look into pumping, how supplementing worked, or anything. Fortunately, I got an electric pump with my insurance because I didn't even look into it. I didn't realize it, but I basically had no feeding "plan" for Emmett. 

Well, fast forward to giving birth and Emmett's first latch. I don't have some magical story of how when he latched for the first time we had 0 problems and it was so glorious. It was the complete opposite of any of that. Emmett is an aggressive eater, literally from the moment he came out. That first latch killed! It took everything in me not to rip his cute little head off of me! The nurses saw the pain I was in and suggested that it was due to tender breasts and him latching incorrectly. So, they worked with us on his latch, but every single way was causing me the same amount of pain. I have a condition with my breasts in which some women with he same problem can't breastfeed at all due to the pain and the baby not being able to latch. So, they suggested using a nipple shield (I guess some women with this same problem use it during their entire time nursing because it's so helpful)... I said "lets go for it" (anything to protect me during these feedings, because at this rate there was no way we were going to make it past this feeding). But when I used it, it hurt even worse. I started crying because I was in so much pain (this was much worse for me than labor and delivery combined... times 3! haha) and once Emmett got off that feeding I looked down and my nipple was bleeding. A lot. The nurse grabbed the nipple shield off, and suggested that I focus on pumping. I tried pumping and it was still painful but nothing like Emmett's latch. So I did that mostly in the hospital, while trying to work on his latch. 

When we left the hospital, they let me take a hospital grade pump for about a month due to my boobie problems, in hopes that it would help our feeding problems. The nurse said if I ended up not being able to nurse him because of the pain, I could at least work on my supply to bottle feed him. I remember leaving the hospital and being scared of how I was going to continue nursing him. I worked on nursing and pumping a lot more during those first few days and I felt so bad for Emmett because my milk still hadn't came in. He lost a little bit of weight at his 3 day appointment, not more than the normal amount but he looked so skinny to me, and it made me super concerned. But the doctor reassured me it was normal for milk to come in at day 4/5 and that nothing was abnormal. His doctor told me to wait it out until then. After getting back from that appointment, I still felt discouraged and wanted to give Emmett formula because I felt like my milk was probably going to be similar to my mom's and I didn't want to starve my baby.

But then the very next day I took a shower in the morning, I put on one of Wyatt's t-shirts and some shorts, and then went on with getting ready. I came back to the bathroom to brush my teeth, looked in the mirror, and my entire shirt was soaked. My milk had came in. I rushed over to my pump because Emmett was sleeping and started pumping. I pumped 6oz out of each side. I was amazed at how much milk I had and was excited to give it to Emmett. Since that day, and until he was about 1 1/2 months old he was drinking about 4/5 ounces every 2/3 hours. It was crazy. There was a dramatic difference in his sleep. He started to sleep in 4 hour increments through the night. But for me, it was all still painful. Not only was the latching still uncomfortable, but I was constantly engorged. I had friends tell me that feeling of engorgement would eventually go away in a few weeks, but it didn't go away for me until Emmett was about 4 months old and I had gotten pregnant. I just remember thinking, "will I ever not be so sticky and in pain?"

But after the first month, things got better with Emmett's latch. I switched to a different latch the "laid back/semi reclined" which I used like 90% of the time I nursed him. That worked best for us because but my milk would come in so fast. It was so much for Emmett that I was literally be drowning him if I cradled or did the football hold. With that being more manageable, I actually started to enjoy nursing. 

I had an overproduction from the moment my milk came in. It had its positives and negatives. I felt fortunate to be able to produce a freezer full of milk while nursing, but I was constantly engorged. For Emmett's first 4 months I could leak ounces and ounces at any moment. I remember walking through Target when Emmett was about 3 1/2 months old. He was completely asleep in his carseat as I pushed the cart and another baby in the store started crying and my milk just let down, like an entire feeding. I went through the nursing pads I was currently wearing and I wanted to die! haha! I felt like I was never going to taper off or even out. I felt like I was constantly a ticking time bomb of milk, because I would let down at any minute. It was discouraging for me to ever want to leave the house because of it.

But when Emmett hit about 4 months old he wasn't latching as well as he did before. He started drinking more from the bottle than from me, like I mentioned in previous posts. Also, my engorgement was finally going down. It was amazing! I cut back on his feedings because I just figured he was growing out of it a little bit. I was stoked because it felt like my milk production was finally evening out. But Emmett would still pop off of me, which was abnormal for him. I started feeling like I was going to start my period, so I figured it must be my milk supply. But I was still pumping the same amount. Well that feeling of "getting my period" came and went and I still didn't get my period. That's when I started to think that I might be pregnant. You can check out the post HERE if you want to know how we found out. But sure enough, I was pregnant and my doctor said sometimes babies can taste the difference in hormones and your milk supply can decrease when you get pregnant. So, that was around the time I started to wean him, which fortunately for us was so easy. I was able to wean him off of nursing onto my freezer stash.  But that went pretty quick with how much Emmett was eating. I don't remember how much I had exactly because I never counted or kept track but it lasted about 3 weeks and it was gone. 

I had some immediate mommy guilt when I started weening him off of nursing because it felt like my body was starting to cater to our new baby more than Emmett. But Emmett didn't have any resistance to only taking a bottle. It was such an easy transition, and I was only engorged for about a day. Also, we are just so excited for baby sister. We feel incredibly blessed to have these babies so close. 

Anyway, my breastfeeding journey with Emmett ended at about 5 months, but when I look back at it I'm surprised I lasted that long, because I really had no longer term plan on feeding. I was really just "winging it" haha! With baby sister, I've set a few milestones goal for myself. I'd love to go at least 6 weeks, because I will have two kids under 1 and I'll be recovering from my 2nd pregnancy in 1 year. I feel like 6 weeks is a realistic goal for me and anything I can do after will feel like an accomplishment! Until next time :)


Monday, July 3, 2017

38 Week Pregnancy Update

These past few weeks have just flown by. We had little sister's baby shower (thank you so much for everyone who came), we moved into our house, and Wyatt and I celebrated our 2nd anniversary. Although this pregnancy wasn't as "easy" as Emmett's I still feel like I lucked out with this one. Despite the morning sickness and my herniated belly button... Overall, I've had a really healthy pregnancy. I'm trying to find the positive in being this huge because I know I'll miss some aspects of it when  I hope that it continues through labor and delivery.

Size: She's the size of a leek and weighs about 6.8 lbs

-I've completely stopped swelling in my legs and feet and now it seems like it's all gone to my face.
-I'm officially lactating again... Started doing this around 35 weeks. Lol. I remember doing this around the same time with Emmett and thinking it was the weirdest thing. It still is. haha!
-Still have motion sickness but not nearly as bad
-LOTS of pelvic aching, just because she is down so low
-I pee just about every hour
-Still pretty "nesty" but we are just about done preparing for her! We'll probably be all ready to go after this week :)
-Slight fatigue. I will get tired during the day but I'm still pretty functional even if I don't get a nap, which was total opposite of when I was in my last trimest with Emmett. I NEEDED naps with him! haha

Weight Gain:
23 lbs total

Pretty much the same as my last update because I'm constantly peeing during the night.

Best Moments:
Getting everything ready for her arrival. I am so excited to have another newborn in our home. They are straight from heaven and I am excited to cherish those moments with her and to get my constant cuddles again!

Worst Moments:
Realizing I have stretch marks. I am carrying this girl totally different than how I carried Emmett. I could feel it from the 1st trimester. With Emmett I only got 2 stretch marks but I had SO MUCH sciatica nerve pain, it was awful. But this time around I've have NO sciatica nerve pain (which is great) but have gotten more stretch marks. I'm carrying her so much lower and  it's so heavy on me "down there" it still amazes me how different each pregnancy can be. I can really feel the impact on my body of have two pregnancies so close together.

Cravings: OATMEAL. I craved this at the end of my last pregnancy into my first 2 months pp. I think this has something to do with my milk production too haha